Jan. 18th, 2020
Apr. 28th, 2010
The storm finally came >< I really hope fate isn't staring me in the eyes.
Apr. 27th, 2010
Apr. 26th, 2010
I’m starting to wonder why fate works the way it does. Lately, I have been wondering if it even really exists. Maybe it does, but it must have a pretty nasty sense of humor. Everything for quite awhile seemed perfect. Everything just kept getting better and better. It still is. I shouldn’t be worrying. Things are for the most part, okay. I have a wonderful stalker relationship that loves to follow me around and take pictures and means everything to me. We have a new place to live, and it is absolutely beautiful. Kimi (my sister) is almost done with her schooling for the year. I’m proud of her. Maybe this summer I can get her to take a vacation here in California. It would really be nice. I know she would love it, but also would probably get herself into trouble at the clubs around Los Angeles.
I worry. I wake up every day, thinking that all this good can’t last. Maybe I’m too pessimistic, but I really think that something is going to happen, and it is going to make us upset somehow. I shouldn’t be thinking these things. If anything, I should be looking at the good, not the bad that doesn’t actually exist. I just have it beat into my head that bad luck seems to follow me. Maybe it’s time that all of that is changing though, because life really is good
Mar. 16th, 2010
I decided I am anti internet. Why? Because I can't figure out my computer. It's giving me little boxes that says I don't have permissions to do such and such. All I'm trying to do is download my homework assignment for an online class. I know, right? Because the technology gods hate me, I'm going to fail a midterm :(
Beyond school (or lackthereof), the only thing I really have to say is that I love the weather in LA right now. It's getting warmer and warmer, and I'm wanting to start hitting up the beach again before work starts taking over life once more. Jaemi... Me, you and looking like fools in less that hot weather on the beach, yes?
Beyond school (or lackthereof), the only thing I really have to say is that I love the weather in LA right now. It's getting warmer and warmer, and I'm wanting to start hitting up the beach again before work starts taking over life once more. Jaemi... Me, you and looking like fools in less that hot weather on the beach, yes?
Feb. 15th, 2010
I love you more every day,
My name I long for you to say.
Do you know just how I feel?
Do you know this love is real?
Sometimes I wonder what you think.
When you hear my name, do your cheeks turn pink?
Do you dream about me every night?
Wish to hug me and hold me tight?
Do you think we're meant to be?
Together forever, you and me?
These are the questions that run through my mind,
Your way into my heart, you did find.
It drives me crazy as to what I should do,
Should I risk a friendship and confess to you?
Or should I keep my feelings inside,
Keep them locked up, let them hide?
I just don't know what to do anymore,
My heart it aches, my heart it's sore.
I love you more than you could know,
And I don't want to ever let you go.
So even if I'm just a friend,
I'll always love you until the end.
My name I long for you to say.
Do you know just how I feel?
Do you know this love is real?
Sometimes I wonder what you think.
When you hear my name, do your cheeks turn pink?
Do you dream about me every night?
Wish to hug me and hold me tight?
Do you think we're meant to be?
Together forever, you and me?
These are the questions that run through my mind,
Your way into my heart, you did find.
It drives me crazy as to what I should do,
Should I risk a friendship and confess to you?
Or should I keep my feelings inside,
Keep them locked up, let them hide?
I just don't know what to do anymore,
My heart it aches, my heart it's sore.
I love you more than you could know,
And I don't want to ever let you go.
So even if I'm just a friend,
I'll always love you until the end.